"Mental Blue Balls."

What's up, Reader! It's been about a week or so since my last blog entry and to be perfectly honest with you i've been in a stupid, weird, creative fog since then.

(Maybe it was the birthday-blues, but who knows).

Even now writing this I still can't quite put my finger on what the problem was, you'll have to excuse me today haha. A person like me who needs creative expression through various outlets cannot stand days, much less weeks, with "creative constipation."

I had no motivation or desire to draw, design, or even write for almost a whole week. When this feeling of "mental blue balls" comes over me it affects me in weird ways. It makes me feel as though i'm not succeeding in life, like i'm not making progress towards any goal I have, and im not being myself. It took me awhile this time, but I finally came out of that thought process earlier today and it got me thinking about a good piece of advice I actually gave a client of mine this past week,

"progress" as we see it doesn't just move in a linear direction,

sometimes the best lessons are learned,

from being stagnant.

From a place of stagnation we are challenged to search for what really moves us, or possibly more important, from what mental state are we choosing to move?

Are we moving from a place of panic, haste, fear, "oh shit"?

Or are we moving from a place of stability, peace, and self-control.

The two outcomes can be very different, right?

I so badly wanted to move, to get that creative release, but I needed to see that I was moving out of fear and panic. Is that the best place to create from?

Everything I try doing in life should be done out of love and self-control. Move from a better mental state, everything you do reflects your mental state. How we do anything is how we do everything right?

This applies to boxing as much as it does life.

Lesson learned.